There never was much hope. Only a fool's hope...

I try to hold on to the world
But the thrust of destiny pushes me further
I make an effort to move on
But your presence keeps pulling me back

It hurts so much...
Sometimes I feel strange things
When I'm with you I have to focus so hard not to grab your hand
I feel such an urge to runaway from everything with you
Take your hand in mine and embrace you
As if I was embracing the whole ocean in my arms
Feel your hair in my face, look right into your eyes
And tell what I truly feel

In my dreams, sleeping or awake
I try to imagine what would be like If I could
Feel the touch of your lips in mine
Feel your pulsing heart rejoycing as mine would
As I tasted the flavour of divine.

But then I wake up
And you're still away, I'm still trapped
I still have to quiet my feeling
To suppress the words I want to say
To command hopelessly my feelings to go away
Knowing in advance that they will stay.

You must be wondering
How can I live this way
Well, even I don't know...
Maybe it's hope...
But as someone said:
"There never was much hope... Only a fool's hope"

But one thing I know...
I'm past the point of no return
Right now there are only two possible endings
Happiness or utter destruction

Well... I'm already in pain... Maybe it will end quick

Then again...maybe not...

Melancholic Soul

Over & Out